Tired

Yeah, uh
 Lately I've been tryna cope
 I always do it alone
 I just suffer on my own
 Still going through highs and lows
 Feels like I've been here before
 Sometimes I just wanna post what I have been feelin'
 But I have the feelin' if somebody knows
 They'll use it against me, I'm used to the envy
 They're good at pretendin' they don't
 My thoughts are reflections of what I'm suppressin'
 Me tryna correct it is needed the most
 I'm counting my blessings through my perception
 I can't see the lesson that God's tryna show
 I recently check in a therapy session to ease the depression
 I'm tryna let go
 My life has distressed and I feel disconnected
 I keep second guessing the path that I chose
 It blows, to manifest everything that I ever wanted
 It feels so dismissing
 Why does my happiness come to a crash
 And then I'm the one whose caught in the collision?
 When I get emotional I sabotage myself
 By making these impulsive decisions
 I feel like everybody's out to get me
 The trauma I've been through's keeping defensive
 I don't know why I never open up
 There's a door to me that I'm closing shut
 I'm mentally numb, I just wanna run
 I love and hate the person I've become
 I love me for makin' it on my own
 But hate me 'cause I celebrate alone
 I'm a sore winner, I already know
 I don't wanna rap, I think I'ma fold
 I feel isolated no family or friends
 I honestly feel like I've reached a dead-end
 I've been tryna be optimistic but
 Loneliness is still a feeling that's wearing me thin
 Where is the old me, where have I been?
 I'm searching but I no longer exist
 I always lose me, I find me again
 But not now 'cause I don't know if I can, damn
 I'm just tired of feeling low, you know?
 I just don't know what it is, it's just like
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