If you're tryna find me, find me on the road
Stressing, tryna get away from home
Parked on the hills, tryna be alone
Sunset hours just to see the glow
These the moments, where I feel the most
Thinking 'bout life, tryna find my soul
Chasin' my dreams, swear I'm getting close
Dealing with things that no one knows
Dealing with heartbreak so much that I grew accustom to the feelin' of me feelin' lost
There's a girl who I left inside of my past who continues to remain deep in my thoughts
Always something to remind me, that I can't put you behind me
Good girl bad timing, I was busy tryna find me
And I still haven't found me and that's probably the reason why I still feel I ain't find no one else
My old friend Fabi told me, "You can't love anybody until you start loving yourself"
That when I was 21, it didn't resonate with me till now I see that it's real
Maybe that's why I keep making the same mistakes and have scars in me that never healed
And deep in my mind, I'm living in fear, I always act like I know where I'm headed
But only if you knew that I always move through out my life without a direction
I always thought I had a change my life, until I realized I just had a accepted it
Life is not happening to me, it's happening for me and that is becoming the message
What if the things that went wrong in my life, happened to me for a purpose?
And what if God has a plan all along and my tribulations would be worth it?
What if thru all my misery, I found my destiny?
What if my misery, brought out the best in me?
What if my misery, showed the strength left in me?
What if my misery, saw what's ahead of me?
And built me
Yeah, if you're tryna find me, find me in my mind
Reflecting deep staring at the sky
Still holding on who I left behind
Thinking 'bout things that I kept inside
Thinking 'bout my lows and all my highs
What will they think when they see me rise?
Am I making change? Or I'm wasting time
Praying to god to give me a sign
Dealing with loneliness so much I open up to women, I invite over for company
They all sound the same, when they try to say, they can not refrain, fallin' in love with me
That's when I get silent, and that's when they try to always convince me how they could the one for me
Until they realize I realized their agenda and that's when they get up to leave and be done with me
I'm too paranoid to let people get close, that's probably the one thing I'm avoiding the most
I used to always hate being alone, until I explored my mind and my soul
Done tryna control what I can't control, the more hold on I need to let go
Visualizing my goals, the life that I chose I'm free as can be, I'm cutting the ropes
I'm spreading my wings, I'm becoming me
They followed the crowd, I followed my dreams
I'm against the grain on how it should be
And accept what it is
What if my broken heart taught me how I could pick up all the pieces?
My parents addiction gave strength that I needed
Depression was just a mindset I believe in
And God had a plan but I just couldn't see it
Damn
What if?
If you're tryna find me, find me on the road
Stressin', tryna get away from home
Parked on the hills, tryna be alone
Sunset hours just to see the glow
These the moments, where I feel the most
Thinking 'bout life, tryna find my soul
Chasin' my dreams, swear I'm getting close
Dealing with things that no one knows
If you're tryna find me find me in my mind
Reflecting deep staring at the sky
Still holding on who left I behind
Thinking 'bout things that I kept inside
Thinking 'bout my lows and all my highs
What will they think when they see me rise?
Am I making change? Or I'm wasting time
Praying to god to give me a sign
Give me a sign
Give me a sign