No One Knows

Yeah, feels like I'm losing myself
 Feels like I'm losing myself
 Why am I dooming myself
 The fuck did I do to myself
 Should've been true to myself
 Dumb to think you would've helped
 Dumb to think you would've helped
 Feels like I'm brewing in Hell
 Feels like I'm brewing in Hell
 Can't be hard for you to tell, uh
 Stuck in a slump and I keep climbing up
 I just turned 25 feels like my time is up
 Feels like everyone's us and it's harder to trust
 And I can't shake the gut feeling
 I'm feeling like there's a knife in my gut
 And that's a gut feeling
 When you know deep down that the real person you love
 Is dooming you that's why I left
 No don't get upset when you see me 'cause I didn't wanna give you up
 And it's fucked to think for you I wasn't enough
 I just wanted your love but you wanted
 There's some nights I wanna go and get hella drunk
 So everything I was feeling could turn into numb
 Addicted to you, you're my favorite drug
 I buy your lies, you're my favorite plug
 Sometimes at night I will stare up above
 And wish under a star that I wasn't so dumb
 Why does it even matter, shit I didn't matter
 I built up my hope just for it to get shattered
 I'm always alone with the thoughts that I gather
 I flip through my thoughts it's a terrible pattern
 As if flipping through 'em will lead me to answers
 I try to move forward, but keep going backwards
 I hide all my pain behind smiles and laughter
 Where no one knows that I'm a wild disaster, fuck
 Give me all
 Oh, I wanna walk away
 I'm living like a ghost
 And no one ever knows
 See me fall
 Oh, I knew that I would break
 I'm living like a ghost
 But no one ever knows
 Always alone I wish someone could see me
 I lay in my bed staring up at the ceiling
 Talking to myself until I'm overthinking
 I'm home all alone no one knows that I'm weeping
 I swear my whole life is so fucking deceiving
 And I stand for broke with the checks I'm receiving
 My money can't buy the family I'm needing
 My money can't heal the agony I'm feeling
 I need someone to love to me, someone to hug me
 Someone to be there when my mind gets ugly
 I swear they really think my life is stunning
 Bro I come home to absolutely nothing
 I'm just a lonely guy loaded with money
 Nobody told me my days won't be sunny
 I'm bleeding on people who didn't cut me
 So when they leave me, they leave 'cause they bloody
 I have issues with women, I'm so co-depended
 I can't love myself, so I need her to give it
 And that's always where my self-worth is depicted
 And that's why I date women so narcissistic
 My mind is a mess and it's always conflicted
 And lately it's been hard to make a decision
 And it pains me that I finally admit it
 I've been suicidal and trying not to end it, fuck
 Give my all
 Oh, I wanna walk away
 I'm living like a ghost
 And no one ever knows
 See me fall
 Oh, I knew that I would break
 I'm living like a ghost
 But no one ever knows
 I'm saddened to think people that think that I'm reaching
 And that is the reason I feel what I'm feeling
 I may have some fame, but it's pain that I'm reaping
 I been praying to God asking Him for a healing
 Man, I need my mom, I need my dad
 I need the family we never had
 Our family's broken, I'm feeling hopeless
 Nobody notice I'm in a trance
 All I have is my daughter I stare in her eyes
 And I break down all I do is provide
 How can I give her a family life
 When it's just me and her every night, fuck
 Yo, this shit is too much
 I'm single-handedly killing my buzz
 I don't make music 'cause I'm in a rut
 And all of the stress of it is making me numb
 Why do I dream of a Grammy I'm winning
 When I don't have a family to celebrate with me
 Look there is no bullshit excuse that you could give me
 To make me feel like my damn life is worth living
 I swear loneliness is a cancer within me
 I'm searching for friends 'cause my family's missing
 This shit is exhausting, I'm thinking of quitting
 And maybe the end for me is a new beginning
 Give my all
 Oh, I wanna walk away
 I'm living like a ghost
 And no one ever knows
 See me fall
 Oh, I knew that I would break
 I'm living like a ghost
 But no one ever knows