Still Lost

There is an aching in my heart
 There is no light in the dark
 I wish I can find a spark
 'Cause I am lost
 Still lost, still tryna figure it out
 Wondering why my mind's filling with doubt
 Me and my baby mama split, and we went different routes
 Now my daughters gone, living in a different house
 I was so busy chasing the dream that I'm living now
 I didn't notice my family wasn't sticking around
 Now I'm in this empty house sitting on the couch
 All of this 'cause of words I spit out of my mouth
 But I'll never give up and I'll never give in
 Depression only kills you when you let it win
 And it's time to put up a fight, so I'm balling a fist
 And swinging at, and so that shit doesn't bother again
 The pain of being alone is wearing me thin
 I still owe me, like where have I been?
 Used to be happy but now I am grim
 I don't wanna live
 Tryna find myself but until then I'm still lost