LOST MYSELF

I think I lost myself when I started going out
 Taking drugs just to numb my pain
 I think I lost myself when my mother look me in the eyes
 And told me that I'm "Not the same"
 I think I lost myself when everyone figured out
 I'm a screw-up and an addict
 Looking at the world like it's crazy
 There's no one to save me
 And there's only one reason that I'm mad
 I'm mad because I
 I know I should have asked for more than what I've gotten
 It's hard to bite the apple if you know the apple's rotten
 They feeding me unhealthy habits but I couldn't stop it
 They told me love is natural, but this is feeling forced
 Don't bite the hand that feeds you
 Well, unless of course
 Unless it's constantly feeding you stuff that you can't stomach
 I'm not the one to tell them that I always ran from it
 Confrontation makes me sick I feel like I'm gon' vomit
 I don't wanna be the person that just hides behind
 Every wall I throw up, while I die inside
 This knot in my stomach won't stop until it's tied my mind
 It's held me down for too long and now my breath is gone
 I hope I get a second chance but there's no death respawn
 I know I'm probably not the person that can love on you
 But I'm a walking consequence of what love can do
 And if they treating you like dirt, then they will shovel you
 Into your grave where you will die and then cover you
 And swear to God, and claim that they were loving you
 'Cause when you're six feet down there no longer under you
 Having a higher person doesn't mean you're fireproof
 X got shot, all he did was inspire youth
 If I could do one thing, it'd be inspired you
 To look inside the mirror and stop lying
 To the only fucking person that would die for you
 I think I lost myself when I let myself fuck around and fell for the wrong one
 Ay
 I think I lost myself when my mental health started giving signs and I ignored them
 Ay
 I think I lost myself when I found all my friends doubting all the dreams that I had
 Looking at the world like it's crazy, there's no one to save me
 That ain't the only reason that I'm mad
 I'm mad because I
 Found myself trapped in the dark, sad in my heart
 Mad at God just to cap it all off
 Your words and eyes, they ain't matching at all
 But nowadays I smile, I'm just laughing it off
 It's a prison cell in the head all the time
 When you're going to hell just to get through life
 Just to make it through another night
 Another sibling tryna pick a fight
 Family's not normal, guess that it's alright
 I just learned to live with it and adapt to life (life)
 In fact, who am I kidding, can you pass the knife?
 Just so I can slice into the afterlife
 The only time I'm happy is when I grab the mic
 It's like they can't be happy, so they mad that I'm
 It's like they don't have passion, so they after mine (why?)
 Asking a bunch of questions but I answer mine
 I think I lost myself when I let myself fuck around and fell for the wrong one
 Ay
 I think I lost myself when my mental health started giving signs and I ignored them
 Ay
 I think I lost myself when everyone figured out I'm a screw-up and an addict
 Looking at the world like it's crazy, there's no one to save me
 It ain't the only one reason that I'm mad
 I'm mad because I