I wish I was the same

Yeah
 I also wish I was the same, but nowadays, I numb the pain
 It hurts me when my mother came and told me she was wondering
 If I'm still struggling and underneath I am
 I'm just scared of her not loving me, a failure to my fam
 So what's the point of being me? What's the point of trying?
 When I tell you how I feel, you just tell me that I'm lying
 When I hide behind those walls, it's because I'm fuckin' crying
 Please don't ask me to open up, 'cause I won't know what to say
 And don't ask me for any trust; I just feel there's no way
 Every person that I dared broke it every single day
 There's no chance to rebuild it, they broke it every way
 And I wish I was the person that I was yesterday
 I also wish I was the same, but nowadays, I numb the pain
 It hurts me when my mother came and told me she was wondering
 If I'm still struggling and underneath I am
 I'm just scared of her not loving me, a failure to my fam
 So what's the point of being me? What's the point of trying?
 When I tell you how I feel, you just tell me that I'm lying
 When I hide behind those walls, it's because I'm fuckin' crying
 And then I'll tell you next time, I hope you don't think I'm lying
 And it's hard to be me, and it's hard not to care
 And when I tell them about my problems, they can't help but stare
 And maybe I'm crazy, or maybe too aware
 That this life is kinda shitty, I don't really care
 I'm just asking for the old me to please reappear
 'Cause I'm all out of gas and I don't know how to steer
 And anybody in my past, I wish you could hear
 Then old me if you're listening, I wish you were here
 I also wish I was the same, but nowadays, I numb the pain
 It hurts me when my mother came and told me she was wondering
 If I'm still struggling and underneath I am
 I'm just scared of her not loving me, a failure to my fam
 So what's the point of being me? What's the point of trying?
 When I tell you how I feel, you just tell me that I'm lying
 When I hide behind those walls, it's because I'm fuckin' crying
 And then I'll tell you next time, I hope you don't think I'm lying