Painful Skies

Look
 I know what I did
 And I'm not sitting here blaming anyone else
 I'm not feeling sorry for myself either
 Yo
 I listen to this beat it makes me think of what I've been through
 All of the mistakes and stupid shit that I got into
 All the fuckin' fakeness of people that I made friends with
 So 98 percent of those friendships, I had to end it
 I'm to old to be worried and keep pretending
 And I apologize to some of the people deeply offended
 But I can't live in the past, that shit just wears me down
 That shit just tears me up inside and fucking tears me down
 I'm not the man I was then, but I am not running
 And I am not yet the man that I am still becoming
 I'm getting stronger everyday and I can fucking feel it
 And all the problems of my past one day I'm gonna deal with
 Thanks for your patience I apologize for each occurrence
 And I just hope that you can take this as some reassurance
 My life is good, each day is better than the next day
 But I have not forgotten won't settle till every debts payed
 Time changes
 Each man ages
 And sometimes best friends become strangers
 Each life's a book with blank pages
 Last ten years it's a chapter that's outrageous
 Time changes
 Every man ages
 And sometimes best friends become strangers
 Tears, anger and laughter we can't change it
 Listen to your hearts, we're protected by angels
 Look
 Let me make this clear I don't regret my whole past
 Can't believe how time flies, shit has gone by so fast
 You let me in your secret world and that was quite an honor
 And I admit that that's a life I thought I might have wanted
 Probably of pursued If I hadn't gotten caught up
 But flags they started raising with these kids all gettin' shot up
 And I became addicted to a drug that almost took my life
 Lookin' back that might of been the only thing that saved my life
 I'm full of love now, I'm Happy, I don't harbor hatred
 Pretty sure that's how God wants us and to me that's sacred
 I'm not sitting here judging and calling ya'll some vagrants
 And I'm not pointing fingers questioning your occupations
 I'm just hoping that the way I feel can shine some light
 I know you got a good heart dawg. It's time to stop the fight
 And let yourself become the man that your supposed to be
 I still believe in you, no matter what, you're always close to me
 Time changes
 Each man ages
 And sometimes best friends become strangers
 Each life's a book with blank pages
 Last ten years it's a chapter that's outrageous
 Time changes
 Every man ages
 And sometimes best friends become strangers
 Tears, anger and laughter we can't change it
 Listen to your hearts, we're protected by angels
 And I know becoming friends again ain't possible, at least for years
 And fucking up for me is still a problem that I deeply fear
 Only got a couple close friends now, that's how I like it
 And I think I'm actually gonna make it, but I'm not a psychic
 One of them is a brother proud to say that he's my best friend
 Come on man! you got some fucking brothers, let this shit in
 It's sad to me to see that greed is still the devil's weapon
 I tried my best to walk away from shit and kept steppin'
 Brothers doin' good, his heart is filled with love
 And we gon' keep on building with these people that believe in us
 Remember there was four of us till death do us part
 Now there's only two of us the rest grew apart
 It doesn't mean I don't think about you too, every week
 And even if we never speak there's still a bond I'll never leave
 I hope your happy and your family is doin' awesome
 And hope that your still following the progress of the little monster
 You had a hand and that helped and saved my life, I won't forget
 Let's live the next half with no regrets, cause it ain't over yet
 Time changes
 Each man ages
 And sometimes best friends become strangers
 Each life's a book with blank pages
 Last ten years it's a chapter that's outrageous
 Time changes
 Every man ages
 And sometimes best friends become strangers
 Tears, anger and laughter we can't change it
 Listen to your hearts, we're protected by angels