Cold Crush

Kids ain't ready for the style I got
 My life's a fucking horror movie with the violent plot
 And I can feel my thoughts cracking and bending
 No turning back and there's no happy ending
 I'm climbing walls with anxiety
 Walking zombie, I'm not going quietly
 Ay, I'm the northwest best
 In the grey and black North Face Gore-Tex vest
 Who want slide down my vortex next?
 Smoke tobacco. Shining with stars to a black hole
 That's what I get for being such an asshole
 Want to put a rope around my neck like a lasso
 Rain's coming, clouds rolling over head
 Words pouring from my head
 Be a warrior 'til I'm dead
 But I don't want to meet Joe Black, I'm not ready yet
 Long black box with roses and poinsettias
 Yo, yeah
 Hit the stage with radicalised battle cries
 Unintentional role model with bad advice
 Between a rock and a hard place
 My favourite movies were Goodfellas and Scarface
 And God Father. Guess I took that shit too literal
 Wasted twenty years of my life rolling with criminals
 Snort coke, get a dirty and perverted mind
 It's not a good look doing coke at thirty-nine
 Put that lame shit to bed, change the chapter
 'Cause when my head's clear you'll still feel my rapture
 Plus there's so much out still to capture
 I'm recharged, ready to go
 Be an adapter
 Through the storm to the path of illumination
 Even if you feel like you're half of a wrong creation
 My whole life been babbling gloomy statements
 But now feel like my brain's unravelling doom and hatred
 (Fuck!)
 Blow my brains out and drop to the pavement
 What if there's more then I'm locked up with Satan
 Burning for eternity does not sound appealing
 So now I'm kneeling looking up past the ceiling
 Ask God's forgiveness and please start me healing
 'Cause if you mean it, I swear you could feel it
 Tears drop leaving stains on this paper, I'm writing on
 You can't give up, you just keep fighting on
 Mad the destroyer or Madchild the healer?
 Don't be afraid, let your love out. Reveal it
 Feeling chained to my list of regrets
 So many barely move breaking into a sweat
 And everything's dark and grey. I see no colour
 Break free from my past, need bolt cutters
 Unless it's family or blood, don't trust others
 I'm getting older but still cold crush brother