Grand Closing

Walking near the water
 I can see the very spot you said you would
 Then you got drunk and all our friends
 Said "don't you dare fuck this up"
 So this is how it goes
 And this is how I walk now
 This is how the weight feels
 Will I ever sleep well?
 In a perfect world we'd be in jeans
 We'd be in T-shirts, be in love
 If I cared enough, I'd be distraught
 Like I used to be, like I always was
 So this is how it goes
 So this is how I walk now
 So this is how you fade out
 And this is how you sleep well
 So this is how it goes
 And this is how I walk out
 Some things will never heal well
 Some things I can't remember
 So this is how it feels
 And this is how you fade out
 So happy fuckin' new year
 We're alive but I want back my life, the years, the hope