Future Me

Here I am future me
 On the corner of 5th and Berkeley
 Glorified canvas socks and this shredded jean jacket
 The corners that I end up on by accident
 Between the leaves and sky I see negative space
 When I followed some directions past your old place
 Like a friend you can't forgive but then forgot
 Your house is on Your Neighborhood's Next Top Parking Lot
 When I leave you'll never notice it
 But I relive those years like phantom limbs
 Your indecision, a lack of empathy
 I should've left, I should've settled for lonely
 Every slow familiar soundtrack brings me here
 To the ghost I haven't spoken to in years
 My nerves were slowly stretching out the sleeves of every sweater
 Rekindling old habits, knowing better
 When I leave you'll never notice it
 But I relive those years like phantom limbs
 Your indecision, a lack of empathy
 I should've left, I should've settled for lonely
 Dark nostalgia and the tapes I haven't played
 Since that deck broke in my old room
 At the house you never went to