What My Heart Held

I just want to feel something,
 I just want to feel something new.
 I feel like I'm stuck in this routine
 Every day is decided before I wake
 Every dream that I've dreamt I don't want to chase
 All the people I've met, I start forgetting their names.
 The whole day just blurs into one picture
 And months later, there are collections of copies
 Everything looks the same, everything feels the same.
 I feel like I'm stuck in this routine
 Every day is decided before I wake
 Every dream that I've dreamt I don't want to chase
 All the people I've met, I start forgetting their names.
 And they forget mine and I give them no blame
 I'm so disconnected I don't feel the same
 That I did when we started
 When I knew what my heart held.
 So what does my heart hold now?
 Is it something else or am I too blind to see I'm still the same?
 I know I still hold close the same things I always have
 But this world crashes down on me and I can only think about the weight
 Instead of those who were always there to help me hold it up.
 You have always been there to help me hold up this earth
 Every time it weighs me down.
 I need to break out of this routine
 Everyday is decided when I say
 Every dream that I've dreamt I am gonna chase.
 All the people I've met in every different place
 I hold them all close and support their dreams
 I feel so connected, now I am the same
 That I was when we started
 When I knew what my heart held.
 Everything looks the same, everything feels the same,
 You've always been there to help me hold up this earth.