Everything as Planned

I don't sleep at night
 And I don't sleep at night
 
 I just lay and think
 About if everything went just how I've planned
 And how nothing is going how I've planned
 I'm tied down to the bed I've made
 The one I've said that I had left
 I shouldn't speak before I know (before I know)
 I've built and rebuilt the bed I lay in
 But I always end up restless in the same place
 I don't sleep at night
 And I don't know what to think
 About the life I've made for myself
 Or have I created my own hell?
 Did I set myself up to fail?
 Tried to take care of everyone else
 Neglected taking care of myself
 How can I take care of anyone else?
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 The one thing I wanted most
 Was lost because of my own
 My own irresponsibility
 Do I get as many chances as it takes?
 (As many changes as it takes?)
 Or have I not earned them?
 Or have I not earned them?
 Tell me that I have earned them
 Tell me that I can...
 Start sleeping through the night
 Will you tell me that I've created a life for myself?
 None of us were made to fail
 I know without taking care of myself
 I can never take care of anyone else
 Will I start to sleep at night?
 Or will I just lay and think?
 About how if everything went just how I've planned
 Or if I'm better off it never has
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 Will I start to sleep?
 
 Or will I just lay in bed?
 Will I start to sleep at night?
 Or will I just lay and think?