Crawling Home

I just can't leave this alone meat for the wolves pulling flesh from the bone.
 This is blood that I draw from a stone.
 And a scar to remind me of where I was born.
 This is what it takes to forgive myself for you.
 Don't ask me what I am becoming.
 Something that you cannot comprehend.
 Completely unacceptable results.
 Damaged and desperate, I am crawling home.
 And it feels like something is wrong
 When I'm not tethered to this hotel bed
 I do what I can to make sense of this mess
 That I made for myself, in my head.
 One day at a time.
 When I leave there will be no goodbyes, no explanations.
 This is just something I need to do for now.
 When I die there will be no funeral, make no arrangements.
 What happens on the road will kill us all.
 Don't ask me what I am becoming something that you cannot comprehend.
 Completely unacceptable results.
 Damaged and desperate, I am crawling home.
 Show me if this is where I belong.