on me

I watch your life fade through the great vine
 While you getting old and it's hurts
 Cause you loved me when I need that
 And you stayed around when it's worse
 And it took a while but I see it now
 So I'm praying on that I'll learn
 How to let go of them old times and we'll move on this earth
 You gave me life and you gave me more I'm so grateful that I'm blessed
 With a real one with a big heart that'll push on when depressed
 That'll push on with no rest
 That'll give love to what's dead
 That'll give love to the not enough that always do it her best
 But then there's me
 I was a product of peace
 But came out so wild and free
 I need you to see
 That all of the trauma I'm having
 Was really not cause of you please
 I need you to see
 The life that I've chosen to life are the reason that I'm never clean
 It's in how I think
 It's taking my dreams
 I need you to see
 I know it's on me
 I know it's on me
 Yeah yeah yeah
 I know it's on me
 Yeah yeah yeah
 It seems like I'm running like I got the answer
 But I gotta question the way that I live
 Take on the pain that be coming from choices I'm making
 The ones that I never forget
 Like making you have the regrets
 I hope I can earn your respect
 I hope I can make up for all of the trauma
 I've caused you to stay in your head
 But I know you
 Gon say it's fine
 But you can state that truth
 That it's not alright
 You can tell me how
 In the year he died
 You had to see me locked
 Had to say goodbye
 You had to watch your son
 Go from school to drugs
 Go from life so good to it not enough
 Go to bills to big so he turned the plug
 But that's not you cause you gave me love
 Imma make this right
 Imma make shit straight
 For the day you leave
 For the day you fade
 Imma show you how
 Imma show you change
 When I take my life
 To the place you'd pray
 And now all that's wrong
 That is all on me
 And I'm sorry that pops
 Had to rest in peace
 That I've caused you stress
 And I've made you bleed
 But I see clear now
 That it's all on me
 On me
 I know it's on me
 Yeah yeah yeah
 I know it's on me
 Yeah yeah yeah
 Love a bond that connects two people that cannot be broken
 Truth a line we tell ourselves to hide
 Peace a project of all the pain we pushed away when we were kids
 And loss a feeling that no one should ever feel