I Don't Understand

I don't understand
 How on the same day you say that you love me you out with that man
 You ruined our plan
 Of being together forever and finally raising a fam
 I made you leave
 I couldn't put up with your problems no more they were bigger than me
 I should be free
 But I can't stop thinking about how the love of my life would go cheat
 I hate myself that I miss you
 I hate the fact that you're gone
 I hate the way you think it's OK
 Because of your pain you are treating me wrong
 I know that you got your issues
 I know it's harder to move on
 I know the way that you cope with your pain
 Is hurting the ones that you do want
 I knew that this would come to the end
 We gotta part ways there no way we be friends
 Wish that I could I can't make amends
 How can you live with the shit that you did
 You cut me slow then tell me don't go
 But how you except me to let you come home
 When all that you did was bringing me low
 You talk about love but you never did show
 Cause love is not cheating and lying
 Or making the other one feel they like dying
 It's bigger than that
 All of the time I was trying
 To keep you from flying
 But I'm never taking you back
 Wish that I never was fighting
 For someone confined in
 The shit that keep them in past
 I thought that I saw the lighting
 And soon I'd be finding
 But I was so wrong about that
 I was wrong about a lotta things
 In the late nights when I can't sleep
 I'm In my bed and I'm all alone
 You not here but you in my dreams
 These thoughts that I still think
 I can't believe I had to leave
 I'll never know where imma go
 But there's no chance that you with me
 There's a chance you change ways and you finnally getting better
 You will come back in my life and tell me we could be forever
 I will think back to this time and go remember I said never
 Gonna let you in my life again there's no way well be together