Nostalgic Drive

I hurt my mom and all my fam when I was on the drugs
 I never called to say I love you but I'd text the plug
 It hurt my soul when she had told me she had given up
 But I can't blame her I was not around and not enough
 I couldn't see that what's important was inside my grip
 And all the money sex and drugs it wasn't meaning shit
 Cause I was fucking getting high and I was getting rich
 It took me having everything to want the love that I had spent
 And I was standing in the cell when I had called my dad
 I told him that I love him and I wish that I could change the past
 It's in those moments that you see who really have your back
 I posted bond and came back home I'm grateful that we made it last
 He lost his battle to the cancer I still got regrets
 All them arguments and shit I wish I never said
 Cause that's the type of stuff that haunts you when they fucking dead
 I've done too much up in my past to ever go & get ahead
 I don't want to wait too long
 I don't waste my time
 I just wanna be right here
 Till it's over
 Till it's over
 I don't want to wait too long
 I don't want to waste my time
 I just wanna be right here
 Till it's over
 Till it's over
 It's crazy all the promises they make that never stay
 Damn it's crazy I could fall in love but then I'd push away
 When I'm never feeling worthy cause I'm holding onto shame
 That's from moments in the past that I just wish I could erase
 Like the days when it was me shaking facing my disease
 Frozen in my bed and looking out on my beliefs
 When I was watering a seed soon would sprout into a tree
 Then it burned into my heart and spread into the seams
 Don't take my life before I get to find
 The inner reasons why we living just to go & die
 We born again to lay alone it seems a waste of time
 I just wanna feel some peace for I say goodbye
 My time will come and so will yours we'll see what lies ahead
 Is all the life we thought was real really just a thread
 That we imagined we created only in our heads
 And now we finally know the truth but we fucking dead
 I don't want to wait too long
 I don't want to waste my time
 I just wanna be right here
 Till it's over
 Till it's over
 I don't want to wait too long
 I don't want to waste my time
 I just wanna be right here
 Till it's over
 Till it's over
 Okay we grew up on that sidewalk
 Bike lanes and high talk
 I ain't felt this way since the first song that I dropped
 Thinking bout the way we used ride around the lights off
 Dreaming of the future we'd create. I pulled the heist off
 Yeah
 Wonder where the time went
 Wonder what it's all for
 Got these thoughts in my head
 Cuz I ain't felt the same
 Since I lost all my friends
 No
 And I felt a pain
 Worse then hearing that he dead
 Frozen right there
 Thought that I could fight fear
 Feeling life is unfair
 Lost in a broken mirror
 My depression my reflection in you
 That's my lesson
 Time's blessing all we got is the truth
 All we got is a few days what do I do?
 If I already made the same pain wash on to you
 I got these thoughts all in my head I hope I make it time
 And that ain't too late save em when they closing they eyes
 I don't want to wait too long
 I don't want to waste my time
 I just wanna be right here
 Till it's over
 Till it's over
 I don't want to wait too long
 I don't want to waste my time
 I just wanna be right here
 Till it's over
 Till it's over