SAVE MYSELF

I hang my head (head)
 Locked inside of my bedroom, I'll be fine (fine)
 Right now, I'm saving my breath (breath)
 I'm sick of wasting my time (time)
 This for all the times that I bled (bled)
 And all the pain that I felt (felt)
 I'll use the lies that I'm fed to fuckin' save myself
 Scared to pick that lock that's hiding my subconscious
 Way too young to be knowing all of these toxins
 Twelve years old, I was sippin' on concoctions
 Tryna tell the world that I think I'm all out of options
 Screaming out for help with the whole world watching
 It was entertaining, it fueled their gossip
 I was just a little kid when I flipped that faucet, went unconscious
 Like fuck it I'ma found out who God is
 No one ever found out about that day
 So they kept on giving me back pains
 They didn't care if I was stuck in a bad place
 It made my brain sicker than the Black Plague, now
 I'm having panic attacks when I'm alone, and I don't sleep
 Fingers down my throat between the meals I wouldn't eat
 When I hit rock bottom, and I wanted to retreat
 I just crawled back up to my damn feet
 I hang my head (head)
 Locked inside of my bedroom, I'll be fine (fine)
 Right now, I'm saving my breath (breath)
 I'm sick of wasting my time (time)
 This for all the times that I bled (bled)
 And all the pain that I felt (felt)
 I'll use the lies that I'm fed to fuckin' save myself
 Bottled up inside, I never learned a way to grieve
 Can't blame myself, 'cause ever since I was a teen
 Everyone I found too close to me would leave
 I would hold on too long even when they'd cheat
 Happened three times, but the fourth girl was a treat
 She manipulated all my insecurities
 I would pull her weight for weeks while we wouldn't speak
 Held up her world while she would kick me in the knees
 I been thinking hard about that day
 When I told her it was our last day together
 She decided to take all of that pain
 And try to overdose, memory is a bad lane
 That I'ma never drive down, she don't deserve it, that's OD
 Permanent imprints from all of the anxieties
 Still burn my soul so bad it's a third-degree
 But I'm still not accepting defeat
 I hang my head (head)
 Locked inside of my bedroom, I'll be fine (fine)
 Right now, I'm saving my breath (breath)
 I'm sick of wasting my time (time)
 This for all the times that I bled (bled)
 And all the pain that I felt (felt)
 I'll use the lies that I'm fed to fuckin' save myself
 I won't (I guess I'll save myself)
 I won't break, break (I guess I'll save myself)