NUMB

Six shots of whiskey now I'm feeling numb
 I keep on running not sure what its from
 No matter what I do it's never enough
 Wonder what happens if I give this up
 This liquor I'm chasing got me feeling numb
 This pressure is building and I might succumb
 I've gone for the next step but found out I'm stuck
 I wonder what happens if I give this up
 Another day another headache
 Trying to figure out what to do with all the dead weight
 Bottled up some problems I had and all of that led straight
 To a couple of curveballs that I threw that I never set straight
 I've been chasing dreams for a motherfucking decade
 Damn, and it still feels like a nightmare
 I don't try to bitch, homie I know life don't fight fair
 I put it in a song hoping that somebody might care
 Cause I put it all on the line, all of the time
 And it still isn't falling in line, I call to the sky
 Wonder why I'm in stalling cause I saw all the signs
 That destiny was calling and I've been starting my mind
 That this is all that I got, this is my motherfucking purpose
 Why do I feel lost, so stuck under the surface
 It's coming at a cost so I go to sleep nervous
 I'm waking up angry, is this shit worth it
 It's feeling like a burden
 Uh, I used to look in the mirror and see benefits
 Now I'm looking in the mirror at my nemesis
 That's enough to get me pumping with adrenaline
 Doc's saying I need sedatives and medicine
 Anxiety and depression they've been setting in
 That shit sends shivers down my skeleton
 They've been knocking on my door and I might let them in
 This liquor I'm chasing got me feeling numb
 This pressure is building and I might succumb
 I've gone for the next step but found out I'm stuck
 I wonder what happens if I give this up
 Six shots of whiskey now I'm feeling numb
 I keep on running not sure what its from
 No matter what I do it's never enough
 Wonder what happens if I give this up
 Was never a bitch thats just not in my breath
 So it's bad I've eroded I'm down on my knees
 Something's stealing my breath now it's harder to breathe
 So I write it all down and I finally bleed
 All the cuts and the wounds I collect
 Been through all kinds of depths for the world to recover
 I'm a martyr of sorts and that's selling it short
 Now I wonder if dying in wonder
 Is it better than all of the pain
 Cause there's not been a day that I haven't seen rain
 Psychology states that if I stay in this state
 Than I'll probably fuck up my brain
 Every day waking up drained
 And I was asleep but I still feel the same
 I'm feeling insane, I search for the words that I could never explain
 Thought this life really isn't as good as they claim
 I'm certain they're plotting in my head to eat me alive
 It swallows me whole but it's unsatisfied
 Consumed by the thoughts that I'm having to hide
 They feed on the pressure I breathe in the lies
 And search for the words I'm unlikely to speak
 My mouths stapled shut so I scream in my sleep
 Never would of thought this was how it would be
 A nightmare to live in a dream
 Oakes
 This liquor I'm chasing got me feeling numb
 This pressure is building and I might succumb
 I've gone for the next step but found out I'm stuck
 I wonder what happens if I give this up
 Six shots of whiskey now I'm feeling numb
 I keep on running not sure what its from
 No matter what I do it's never enough
 Wonder what happens if I give this up