Medicine Bottle

Giving into love and sharing my time
 Letting someone into my misery
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 I told it all step by step
 
 How I landed on the island
 And how I swim across the sea
 
 And it crosses my mind
 That I may awake to a knife in me
 No more breath in my hair, or ladies underwear
 Tossed up over the alarm clock
 Blood dripping from the bed to a neatly written poem
 A heartfelt last line reading
 There is no more mystery
 Is it gonna happen, my love?
 There is no more mystery
 Is it gonna happen, my love?
 It's all in my head, she said, "Morning after nightmare
 "You're building a wall," she said, "higher than the both of us
 "So try living life, instead of hiding in the bedroom
 "Show me a smile, and I'll promise not to leave you"
 It happened under a rainy cloud
 Passing through the dark South
 We went into a big house, and slept in a small bed
 I didn't know you then
 As well as you of me
 We talked of our sad lives
 And we went off separately
 And we went off separately
 I found your overseas souvenirs
 Holiday greeting cards
 Those long forgotten high school fears
 "It's all in my head," I said, banging a piano
 "I've not been so alone," I thought, "since kicking in the womb"
 I drank so much tea, I wrote my letters in Kanji
 Around the block, I walked and walked
 Pretending you were with me
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 Not wanting to die out here
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 Without you
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 The hurting never ends
 Like birthdays and old friends
 We forget that this flesh, blood, and bone is human
 Trading phone lines to airlines
 Unwilling to face that love is found on the inside, not the outside
 And like a medicine bottle in the cabinet, I'll keep you
 And like a medicine bottle in my hand, I will hold you
 And swallow you slowly, as to last me a lifetime
 Without holding too tight
 I do not want to lose the thrill that it gives me
 To look out from my window and scowl at the houses
 From my world in the bedroom
 "It's all in his head", she read in her girlfriend's self-help book
 "It's all his own making; a war with himself
 "Like two sides of a wall that separates two countries
 "He shuts out the world he once knew to love you"
 
 Not wanting to die out here
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 Without you
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 Not wanting to die out here
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 Without you