All I Do Is Sit Inside My House All Day

Father forgive me for you know that I am always sinning
 I take no interest partying with liquor, fucking up my system
 Excuse my language that's a hang up on how shitty I been feeling
 I'm sorry I feel no attraction I know that it's been a minute
 Yeah
 All I do is sit in my house by myself
 By my wealth
 And I wonder if anybody really care about my wellbeing
 Like, if I die would anybody really come out seeking?(For me?)
 It's been a while since my phone rang
 Think I'm about to start a motherfuckin' loner gang
 But it would only be myself
 Man I wish that I could fly away
 Book a one-way ticket to the better days
 Back then when I would suck in all my classes
 I could see my friends with forced interactions
 But we graduated, now they got jobs and they're busy
 I'm just playing Xbox and I feel shitty
 Man I don't wanna say it man this shit is formulaic
 I wake up then I go right back to bed an then replay it
 Music used to be my escape
 Now it's a nightmare
 I pray to God but he don't answer my prayers
 But I'm living
 Been growing up
 Spotify blowing up
 I should be happy, right?
 I should keep rapping, right?
 My fans'll be clapping, right?
 If I didn't try none of this would've happened, right?
 Yeah
 I got kids who looking up to me to be a role model
 Feel like I let 'em down when I down another bottle
 So I put down the bottle
 All I do it sit inside my house all day
 Sometimes I wanna change
 But I don't ever change, no, no
 All I do it sit inside my house all day
 Sometimes I wanna change
 But I don't ever change, no, no