Transmissions

If I could forget all of my sins
 Then maybe I wouldn't hold my breath
 Until the pain sinks in
 And even if my head goes numb
 It's a moment in peace
 In peace
 No matter how hard I try
 (How hard I try)
 I can't escape these walls
 Trapped in a loop of feeling fine
 And waking up wanting to die
 (All alone I am)
 Mistakes are all I have
 They taint my name
 How can I project my pain
 My inability to fucking smile
 How can I project this pain?
 My inability to fucking smile?
 Breathe in, don't breathe out
 I can't believe the pain it brings
 It's torturing
 To follow the heart is to cut it out
 But I died when you left here
 There's blood in these words
 Take me and save me
 And I'm drowning in misery
 There's suffering
 My heart is dead
 My mind says yes
 What's so pressuring
 I'm trembling
 I am nothing without you
 These lies that they feed you of moving on
 I don't need your comfort
 I just want you here
 I can't wait forever
 Death has no return
 No coming back
 No turning back
 Death is forever
 Death has no return
 Now I know what I have to do
 No more wasting time
 Pulling these fake smiles
 So much time living lies that I'll be fine
 Please let me in death
 I'm knocking at your door
 Breathe in, don't breathe out
 I can't believe the pain it brings
 It's torturing
 To follow the heart is to cut it out
 But I died when you left here
 There's blood in these words
 Take me and save me
 And I'm drowning in misery
 There's suffering
 My heart is dead
 My mind says yes
 What's so pressuring
 I'm trembling
 Take me
 Save me
 From this misery
 Hope is just a lie
 Everybody dies
 Hope is just a lie
 (That we're forced to believe)
 Everybody dies
 I'm next in line