To Fall Asleep

Bittersweet remedy, heal me
 I've tried to be everything you need of me
 I'm not holding my breath, I know that ruin merely rests
 I can feel it pressed against my chest
 Like a virus; I've tried to find us a way out of this hole
 With my hands pressed against my nose
 I'm trying to be holy, but I still don't feel whole
 I'm trying to be holy, but I still don't feel whole
 Can't you see that it's haunting me
 Every night when I try to sleep? I'm so weak
 Burdened by the epiphany
 Misery's periphery won't let me be
 The grass is always greener when you live in black and white
 I try to close my eyes, imagine everything's alright
 Honey like an arrow, sewn into a quiver
 It's in my marrow, it's in my liver
 You watch me wilt away like a flower without rain
 There's nothing you can do, honey, please just look away
 I am nailed to this cross, and I must carry it alone
 I'd ask you to hold my hands, but they're worn to the bone
 Can't you see that it's haunting me
 Every night when I try to sleep? I'm so weak
 Burdened by the epiphany
 Misery's periphery won't let me be
 Bittersweet remedy, leave me
 Its shadow follows me
 I try to fall asleep
 I try to fall asleep
 I try to fall asleep