Not Myself Today

I was ready to be grown-up
 Just waiting for the day
 And now I am I'm freaking
 Does Mommy feel this way?
 See, they think that I have answers
 They look to me to guide
 They see this old, old woman
 But there's a little girl inside
 I'm not myself today
 I'm in a funny way
 I'm not the thing they think they see
 This alpha mommy
 She's not me
 They want a woman I can't be
 And words that I can't say
 I'm not the woman I thought I was
 I'm not myself today
 I had no idea a woman
 Could feel so damn dismissed
 They smile and call me "sweetheart"
 Does Ellie feel like this?
 See, if only they would listen
 I could get the search on track
 But when they hear me talking
 They just think I'm talking back
 I'm not myself tonight
 And more than me's not right
 'Cause Fletcher's lost and so am I
 It's not that often by the by
 I wish I were a six foot guy
 But I want to win this fight
 I'm not the woman I need to be
 I'm not myself tonight
 If I had a kid
 And the kid ran away
 I'd hunt him down and kill him
 My god!
 What a thing to say!
 If I had a kid
 And the kid ran away
 I would find him
 I would hold him
 And then I'd kill him
 Okay
 I'm sorry!
 I'm not myself today
 Hey, are you okay?
 Are you okay?
 I'm not okay
 What a day
 Even with all of this
 Messed up between us
 I thought I would do better
 I thought I'd know the way
 I mean, even as you
 I'm a mess of a person
 Can't get my crap together
 I'm also a mess I'd say
 I'm not myself today!
 I'm not myself today!
 I'm not myself today!
 I'm not myself
 I'm not myself today!
 I'm not myself today (Fletcher!)
 I'm in an awful way (Hey Fletch!)
 I know I should be standing tall (ah)
 I never felt so (hey)
 Young and small (hey Fletcher)
 It breaks my heart
 To hear them call (Fletcher hey)
 When there's nothing I can say (hey Fletcher)
 I'm not the woman
 I thought I was (hey)
 I'm not the woman
 I wished I'd be (hey)
 I'm not myself today (hey)
 Hey (hey)
 Hey (hey)
 I'm not myself
 Today! (Fletcher! Fletcher! Fletcher!)
 Hey!