Not What I Wanted

Lately there's been a change in me
 And I'm not sure if I can handle it
 But every day has a different way
 To tear me apart just a little bit
 It seems I've been taking the long way down
 To a place I really didn't want to go
 I can't explain why you pick my brain
 Just to tell me what I already know
 It was a lonely mixed up tragedy
 And it's something that I just can't seem to release
 Not what I wanted
 Not what I need
 (Harmony for you and me
 That's the way we want it to be)
 Deep inside where I used to hide
 There's a place in need of a miracle
 And people claim that they'll stay the same
 But they never have and they never will
 When it's a lonely mixed up memory
 And it leaves me here with nothing more to believe
 Not what I wanted
 Not what I need
 (Harmony for you and me
 That's the way we want it to be)
 You can't deny the truth wore thin
 When we both know what could have been
 I know that some day I'm gonna have my way
 It's a lonely mixed up tragedy
 That rips apart my life long dream
 And a lonely mixed up memory
 That keeps me down when I just wanna be free
 Not what I wanted
 Not what I need
 (Harmony for you and me
 That's the way we want it to be)