Halfway

Don't really care that I'm at an airport
 Every dinner tastes like cardboard
 Every song has all of the same chords
 All of my clothes don't fit in the same way
 Every step forward feels like a mistake
 I still pretend I know what he would say, oh I
 But I don't
 I never will
 And it's fine
 But it's also really not
 I'm halfway good, halfway bad
 Halfway really fuckin' mad
 Almost wish it would pass
 Halfway kinda want it back
 Halfway meetin' someone else
 Halfway nothin' really helps
 Me unfeel how I felt
 Halfway back to myself
 I'm, I'm
 I used to think those nights were the hardest
 Pain right there, that spot where your heart is
 I didn't know I would be missin'
 How good it hurt (how good it hurt)
 But it's better than whatever the hell this is
 Sitting alone and secretly wishing
 You'll come and hurt me all over again
 Maybe it's worse, maybe it's worse (maybe it's worse)
 Or it's not (or it's not)
 Yes, it is (yes it is)
 And I'm fine (and I'm fine)
 But I'm also really not
 Halfway good, halfway bad
 Halfway really fuckin' mad
 Almost wish it would pass
 Halfway kinda want it back
 Halfway meetin' someone else
 Halfway nothin' really helps
 Me unfeel how I felt
 Halfway back to myself
 I'm, I'm
 I, I
 I-, I (I), I (I)
 I (I), I (I)
 I'm halfway me, halfway you
 Halfway tryin' to undo
 Halfway scared that I'll forget
 All the good things we went through
 Halfway here, halfway tryin'
 To just feel like I'm not dyin'
 Halfway, put you on a shelf
 Halfway back to myself
 I'm