Zero Sum

Life is lost; I have thrown it all away.
 My nightmares appear today.
 Pain fills the void, finds meaning.
 The force demands my surrender
 To selfish acts of pleasure;
 Lay ruins from the fall.
 No resolve, no breakthrough for years on end.
 I've forgotten my only friend
 "Carry the burden, break the glass" they say,
 "It's a zero sum game; a role you play"
 Permanence is fading, my world is ending.
 Nothing matters to me anymore
 I've lost all I adored
 Every day I struggle to keep yesterday
 At bay; tomorrow I'll never see.
 The moment escapes me.
 When did I become just an empty shell?
 Memories make my heart break; who's to blame?
 My weakness; letting you go
 These days are not the same,
 Don't know if they will ever be,
 I wish new love to grow.
 Our past will be set free.
 Permanence is fading, my world is ending.
 Nothing matters to me anymore
 I've lost all I adored
 Every day I struggle to keep yesterday
 At bay; tomorrow I'll never see.
 "I'm sorry" to my loved ones;
 Dead glory of better days;
 Dig, bury the life we had.
 "I'm sorry" to myself, Yeah!
 Permanence is fading, my world is ending.
 Nothing matters to me anymore
 I've lost all I adored
 Every day I struggle to keep yesterday
 At bay; tomorrow's gone!