A Different Kind

Living in fear of decisions that might be made irrationally
 I cannot focus on the larger canvas in front of me
 This shit is fucking with me, and I need to move on
 Everything needs to change
 I need to reclaim my soul to be happy
 To be myself, to find a way to be myself again
 To be allowed to be myself again
 A different kind of life
 Unable to decide, it hurts my pride to be so weak
 I cannot push myself toward the larger purpose in front of me
 I need to let it out,
 and now more than ever, it's time to release the chains
 Everything needs to change
 I need to reclaim my life to be happy
 To be myself, to find a way to be myself again
 To be allowed to be myself again
 A different kind of soul
 Weighing the pros and cons
 The potential for greatness and disaster
 All I ever wanted was to be in peace
 And to be honest, I want to trust, I do
 But in seeking a sense of respite
 There is nothing predestined
 And I'll wipe this memory from the slate of my spirit
 And with this weight lifted, I will ascertain my reason to be
 I'll find a way to be myself again
 I'll be allowed to be myself again
 And I will be myself again