Survival

For too long I paid lipservice to liberation
 Let my young self be subsumed in our relations
 Don't think for a moment I don't take responsibility
 But you have to agree it was time I set myself free
 Is it wrong to distill what we had for so many years
 Down to the worst of us both, all of our violence and tears
 Tell me what hurts and hate me for wanting it anyway
 Love has driven me from you and fear won't make me stay
 I have stared down the face of death
 Burned my idols till nothing was left
 If you tried to see through my eyes
 You would know this is how I'll survive, the only way I can survive
 You think I sacrificed happiness for pleasures trivial
 I repeat my mantra no regrets so someday it will feel real
 I am alone, there is no freedom from
 I begged borrowed and stole, escaped your rubber room
 Blame me for what you can
 You are a shell of a man
 Tell all my friends I've gone mad
 Everything I could've wanted, I had
 But survival isn't just for the body
 It's for what will be left of me
 All the ways you say I'm crazy
 They form my legacy
 You think I sacrificed happiness for pleasures trivial
 I repeat my mantra no regrets so someday it will feel real
 I am alone with my freedom to
 I lied cheated and stole to get away from you
 I am alone, wide skies above me
 This city's all mine, and no one to love me
 I am alone unprotected from my worst self
 No freedom from but I have no regrets
 I am alone, wide skies above,
 This city's all mine, and no one to love