Loud and Clear

I only wanted to make something better than myself
 I never resisted being criticized
 No I listened to everything anyone has said
 But some things are not meant to be analyzed
 It's all over now
 I've grown so tired of listening to all the doubt
 The fear so consuming that I'll never get out
 I still have the choice
 To ignore that voice inside my head that says
 Whatever I do, it's not a success --
 I've had enough of this
 With every glance new cracks, new flaws are exposed
 We all carry a thousand mistakes
 But you know someday this Pandora's box will be closed
 Until then, I'll do whatever it takes
 I look to the past, to the future to come
 Relying on daydreams that I might have won
 One day...
 I'm too soft, I'm too hard
 I'm too brave, I'm too scared
 I'm trivial, I'm serious
 Is anyone even hearing this?
 I hear the absence of your cheers
 Loud and clear, loud and clear...