Black Water

I pray for the light
 Which disappears from the surface of this world
 Black phlegm begins to macerate
 Suffuses more and more, a toxic deadly shore
 But I can't quit this poison, I am an addicted person
 I close my eyes and let it pour
 I never see a reason, I'll never be okay
 Devour light like brandy
 It's getting heavier to take
 I fight all my demons at once again
 But I cannot tame the pressure in my lungs
 Am I the one to abandon the throne?
 No water for the flames
 Always ending up the same
 This searing fever
 I am caught in the middle
 Feel the heat and the shiver
 Take it all 'til the last drop
 Let it pour in these veins
 I can feel every moment
 Every grain, every second
 I will dive again in blackened water
 I dive again in unknown water
 No, I choke on blackened water
 Wells out of my sewn up mouth
 I can't breathe, I can't see
 Disrupt this entity
 Oh
 And I caught myself being down on my knees
 Praying for peace to something I know it doesn't exist
 Lost in skewed cogitation
 A billion combinations
 There's no solution for an incomplete equation
 Will you be my unknown?
 But I cannot tame the pressure in my lungs
 Am I the one to abandon the throne?
 No water for the flames
 Always ending up the same
 This searing fever