To Kill This

With a lack of self esteem
 I walked into my teens
 And six years later
 I'm still frustrated
 I'm still not who I want to be
 And now it all comes down to
 Am I treating her right?
 If I could just be
 All that I can be for her
 That's when I'd be the man I long to be
 I hate this cycle
 It's a neverending
 Story of infinite last chances I keep telling myself
 And now it all comes down to
 Am I treating you right?
 Just grow up
 But it's so easy to say
 And so much harder to do
 I hear it each and every day
 Just grow up
 It's the only thing left to do
 It's time to kill this
 There's no two ways about it
 Ends today right here right now
 But it's time I learn that
 It's not a matter
 Of saying the right words
 Or singing the right songs
 It's so old but it's not easy
 To say goodbye to all this heartache
 To just say no, just run away, endure pain
 And suffocate every desire that hurts you
 My words and actions don't align
 My heart is the victim of my mind