The Trial

I wish that I could be the way I once was
 but God's got other plans for me
 Some people say the worst is almost over
 but I don't see how that could be
 When I think too much about it
 I can barely breathe
 And if I'm still alive
 when the autumn kills the leaves
 I guess I'll be what they consider free
 They'll say what makes you happy
 but I warn you:
 This time I'm not gonna listen
 It's hard to tell until you look a little closer
 Then you can see right through 'em
 Every time I think about it
 I can barely breathe
 And if I'm still alive
 when the autumn kills the leaves
 I guess I'll be what they consider free
 They'll lead us all to water but I'll bet you
 They'd just as soon watch us drown
 It never happens how you really want it
 So hope someday you'll live it down
 When I think too much about it
 I can barely breathe
 And if I'm still alive
 when the autumn kills the leaves
 I guess I'll be what they consider free