How Do You Love?

I sit quietly on my phone
 Trying to enjoy time alone
 "Don't think too much" I tell myself when I start thinking
 Wanna enjoy all this breathing without drinking
 Why do they look so in love?
 The couple walking by, well, maybe they're on drugs
 "Don't look too much" I tell myself when I start staring
 Maybe there's something in the perfume that she's wearing
 It's the little things that I can't understand
 How they love, lie, pass it and keep and holding hands
 It's the little things I'll never understand
 I think it must be fake like a fake spray tan
 How do you love?
 How do you love?
 How do you love?
 How do you love?
 I've tried to read myself to sleep
 It just gives me anxiety
 How will I know where I was when I started sleeping?
 I feel the same way about cuddling, but for dreaming
 Distractions can be hard to find
 But I suggest just make a list and you'll be fine
 Write down all the things you wanna learn to do
 Enjoy your favorite movies, starting old to new
 It's the little things that I don't understand
 How they look, lie, pass it, they keep and holding hands
 It's the little things I'll never understand
 Think it must be fake like a fake spray tan
 How do you love?
 How do you love?
 How do you love?
 How do you love?
 How do you love?
 How do you love?
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 How do you love?