Really Wanna Know

Every night I wake up, 3 in the mornin'
 Imsomnia keeps a little nigga zonin'
 Cause I don't think they wanna know
 What's on the other side
 Darkness
 , but this ain't as dark as it gets
 Laugh at them when they thought a nigga lost his wit
 It's ok now cause it all seems legit
 And your probably full of shit
 Thank you for the light
 Now I'm draped in all black
 With an empty Jack bottle and with a logo on my hat
 Always and forever, just know I got your back
 I will die for you homie just to put it like that
 Nothing here is fake so deep down you know
 There's no limit I won't go
 If I have to let it show
 Words can't express how I feel
 Pain will linger, some wounds never heal
 Because I'm living in a world where the sun don't shine
 And the sound of a shot might blow a nigga's mind
 If you really wanna know
 If you really wanna know
 I don't think you wanna know
 See I remember when we first met
 Middle school thumpin'
 Biggest homie on the block
 Only one dunkin'
 Mushroom cut on a six foot frame
 Stretched out colored tee
 With a barbecue stain
 Yes Big B I remember those days
 They will never leave me
 Or lead me astray
 I fight and I feel your pain
 But no matter what I do
 This shit will not go away!
 I wish that it would all go away!
 I wish god would listen everytime that I pray
 I'm speechless but there's so much to say
 Every day is a blessin' but I'm living in the shade
 And hope is all I got left
 How can I be alive when I have to drink death
 Everything right rocks
 I guess it is what it is
 It just ain't what you thought
 Because I'm living in a world where the sun don't shine
 And the sound of a shot might blow a nigga's mind
 If you really wanna know
 If you really wanna know
 I don't think you wanna know
 Now I'm haunted by nightmares from the past
 Like the time we got drunk to go ride in the van
 Swervin' in and out of lanes
 With your foot on the gas
 Full speed down the street
 Lost control then crashed
 And all I can see was broken glass
 I was sprawled on the pavement layed out pitch black
 I woke up saw your face on the dash
 Heard you yell my name but I was out so fast
 Now there's nothing in life we can't cope with
 I don't give a fuck about a doctor's diagnosis
 Paranoid skitzo, manic depression
 Can not hold back a candid confession
 To you B comin truely from the heart
 I'll be there till the end
 Cause you were there from the start
 From a brotha to anotha
 You'll never have to suffer
 Cause you will always have your brothas