What I Believe

lies and deceiving is what i'm believing
 up to my knees so hard to breathe
 it helps that you aren't there
 can't figure out what's the right thing for me
 guess i'll have to wait and see
 so understanding but so far from the truth
 it's what i have to live with
 it's not all i wanted to be
 it's not all i wanted to see
 i can't keep on leading
 i've left what i'm leaving
 guess that's just what i believe
 consciously taking and overly faking
 i can't believe all the things that you're saying
 seems all so simple it's all up to you
 time after time
 you lost what you couldn't find
 it's what you could (what you could)
 it's only what you could (its what you could)
 don't take what you could
 but i know what's up
 so understanding but so far from the truth
 it's what i have to live with
 it's not all i wanted to be
 it's not all i wanted to see
 i can't keep on leading
 i've left what i'm leaving
 guess that's just what i believe