Alive

Growing up I was alone
 Just me and Momma living in an Oldsmobile with no home
 That Ol' Virginia heat creeping in that broken window
 Back seat living, I'm gonna be ok though
 One night my Pops put his hand to her face
 My Momma started running, running like she in a race
 Gotta get away from that place
 Gotta look fear in the face
 Gotta wipe the tears from your face
 Gotta keep running, running, running keep it face paced
 Days turned into weeks and weeks into months
 Momma needed money for our home, needed money, money, money for the pumps
 Minimum wage jobs were the only thing that was calling
 Things were looking bleak but our spirits were never falling
 Never knew how bad things were at the time
 Looking back I'd kill my Dad for crossing that line
 Praying for a God Send
 Praying for the world to end
 Praying for the evil to leave
 I need to breathe, so I can feel again
 Praying for a God Send
 Praying for the world to end
 Praying for the evil to leave so I can feel again
 I wanna feel again, I wanna feel real life
 I wanna feel alive.
 Yeah sure, now everything is fine
 But if I could, I'd reach inside my dad's chest and rip out his heart, just because he stole mine
 So then my Momma found a new man who had money
 Saw the joy in her eyes, made me laugh like something was funny
 He promised us a good life and put us under a roof
 Little did i know that was far from the truth
 The only thing he gave me was my two little sisters, I love em
 When this shit pays off, the world Imma give em
 They were wearing 'I got the best dad' on their bib
 I was wearing bruises from kicks to my ribs
 Praying for a God send
 Praying for the world to end
 I wanted it to end, the edge it was calling
 I knew life would be better if I was falling
 Rose from the ashes, now bitch I'm ballin
 So I picked myself up, turned my life around
 Gotta be successful, gotta make Momma proud
 Gotta get my message across, I'm gonna scream it loud
 Before I die you'll know what this kid's about
 These tattoos ain't the only thing that's skin deep
 The first half of my life I felt like I was asleep
 Now I am back up from that nightmare, got something to declare
 Never give up, it gets better I swear
 Keep on fighting
 I had the pain in my heart but I kept on writing
 Dug inside my brain and I healed myself
 Took out all my problems and I put em on a shelf
 Put em on a shelf so that I can always see em
 Look back and know that I defeat em
 Some empty pages in my life and I'm about to complete em
 Oh you got some pages? I'm about to read em.