The Witness Trees

I don't know what I need
 I'm scared of life, I'm scared of what it means to me
 This broken home is just not what it used to be
 Too fast to slow me down
 Too loud to drown me out
 I doubt I'll ever get this close to what I was
 Because I've seen the grand design
 Hold on, I hope you'll talk about the future when I'm gone
 But if I'm wrong, I'll know the reason why
 I, I can't feel anything
 I can't feel anything that's under my control
 I, I won't do anything
 I won't do anything that's out of my control
 I can see myself
 Extended past the limits of my cry for help
 I don't believe I've ever come this way before
 So why do I know my way?
 What do I have to say and do
 To drain that look of shame away from you?
 I knew we'd never find our peace
 Hold on, I hope you'll celebrate the past before I'm gone
 But if I'm wrong, I'll know that it was me
 I, I can't feel anything
 I can't feel anything that's under my control
 I, I won't do anything
 I won't do anything that's out of my, out of my control
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 I don't know what you need
 I'm scared of love, I'm scared of what it means to me
 This empty house is burning down around me
 So cold I don't know how
 So much for holding out
 I hope I suffocate before I let you choke
 On words you know I'll never say
 Oh no, don't go
 I want you to destroy me one more time
 So when I die, I'll know you really loved me
 I, I can't feel anything
 I can't feel anything that's under my control
 I, I won't do anything
 I won't do anything that's out of my, out of my control
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 Out of my control, yeah