It's Been Awhile

And it's been a while
 Since I could hold my head up high
 And it's been a while
 Since I first saw you
 
 And it's been a while
 Since I could stand on my own two feet again
 And it's been a while
 Since I could call you
 
 And everything I can't remember
 
 As fucked up as it all may seem
 
 The consequences that are rendered
 I've stretched myself beyond my means
 
 And it's been a while
 Since I can say that I wasn't addicted
 And it's been a while
 Since I can say I love myself as well, and
 And it's been a while
 Since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
 And it's been a while
 But all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you
 And everything I can't remember
 
 As fucked up as it all may seem
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 The consequences that I've rendered
 I've gone and fucked things up again, again
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 Why must I feel this way?
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 Just make this go away
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 Just one more peaceful day
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 And it's been a while
 Since I could look at myself straight
 And it's been a while
 Since I said I'm sorry
 
 And it's been a while
 Since I've seen the way the candles light your face
 And it's been a while
 But I can still remember just the way you taste
 And everything I can't remember
 As fucked up as it all may seem to be, I know it's me
 I cannot blame this on my father
 
 He did the best he could for me
 
 And it's been a while
 Since I could hold my head up high
 And it's been a while
 Since I said I'm sorry