Cursed

First as a spark I was burning bright
 A year gone by and I fade to black
 Easy to blame it on everyone
 But I wish I knew what was really going on
 Can someone lift this curse?
 Can someone cast a spell for the better
 On me?
 I've screamed so loud and I've dropped my whole life
 Just to find my place
 But where is my stage?
 I try so hard, I try so hard
 But I'm just going in reverse
 And I'm falling down, I'm falling down
 I just feel like I'm cursed
 Staring into the looking glass
 Seeing fog over all I've done
 Afraid of losing everyone
 Around
 They left me high and dry
 Certain I would die
 And though I found what I want
 Am I starting over?
 Can someone lift this haze?
 Can someone make me see the change around me?
 I've screamed so loud and I've dropped my whole life
 Just to find my place
 But where is my stage?
 I try so hard, I try so hard
 But I'm just going in reverse
 And I'm falling down, I'm falling down
 I just feel like I'm cursed
 I guess it's hard to rid my mind
 Of these thoughts that turn me blind
 I guess they follow me all the time
 And make it hard to see the light in my eyes
 That's burning out
 Since I've been hurt
 But I guess I've always been cursed