Oudenophobia

I awake troubled by what my eyes perceive
 Is this heaven,
 or is this where the frail lay to rest what was left of their souls?
 Where depravity sinks down the ever-growing hole?
 Anguish in mockery, denied by creator
 A fortune worse than damnation in hell
 Dark surrounding me, black is all I see
 This won't contain me
 Is this just a dream?
 I can't feel a thing
 This dark surrounding
 Oh, I had sought for so long this delightful sensation of passage
 For I did not know what lay beyond
 Will I be released?
 Marveled, enthralled within a
 tenebrous realm captivating desperate departures
 Mortal become immortal
 Your lust for the gospel had delivered your soul to torment
 Yet my cries had been heard through the pain I had wrought
 I dance towards the light for I have found what I sought
 Piercing his words through my mortal shell
 At last I have learned that this cannot be hell
 Our worship was false
 For he is the destroyer
 You know him as god
 As he creates, so he destroys