The Unspeaking

On a hill, this is no dream
 Much as I would wish it so
 Much as I would wish the earth itself
 To bloom in black, to overflow
 And is Heaven coughing blood?
 Or is this just rain that burns my cheeks?
 'Cause I swear I've not been crying
 I've been crying here for weeks
 And all my days will just be numbers
 Despite my losing count
 These tears are oxygen and hydrogen
 In changeless and ordained amounts
 'Cause the answer was yes or no
 There were only two ways to go
 Still, I lost the moment to transgress
 When I answered no or yes
 I will make this very clear
 I will do this only once
 I am gazing at your holiness
 I am standing still and facing front
 So I've come back to repent
 And I've come back to reclaim
 Some infinitude of silence
 The unspeaking of my name
 Will you grow this hill to mountains?
 Will the mountains fall to space?
 And each degree of every circle
 Paint a forest on my face?
 There were never words for yes or no
 Through the Earth above, through the Earth below
 And no borderland to repossess
 When I answered no or
 Yesterday-break-down-cast-straight-forward
 Plate-glass-eye-land-scape
 Ex-tra-men-dis-figure-head-strong
 Hold-over-driven-inferno
 No-no-no-no-no