Something Desperate

I woke up with you
 But I was not there
 I had squeezed out my heart
 I had cut off my hair
 And I shrugged in the mirror
 And I vanished myself
 Attained a little nirvana
 Then did something else
 I stumbled to the ruins
 To study and to learn
 How to reconstruct the temple
 Which I proceeded then to burn
 And you with your dark eyes
 Are staring at me
 And I'm standing in scare quotes
 That everyone sees
 So what can I say as I fall to my knees?
 Gonna do something desperate for the hell of it
 Something desperate for the hell of it
 Gonna do something desperate for the hell of it
 And then I'll move on
 You can cast off all meaning
 You can run and run for days
 And yet here you are
 Well, your body anyway
 So you sit on a hill
 And you stare at the clouds
 'Til they stop turning shapes
 And they start turning loud
 And maybe you'll find yourself
 Guilty and bold
 As you dance with the lightning
 In wingtips of gold
 And you stand up proclaiming
 It won't strike me twice
 And it strikes you again
 And it strikes you thrice
 And now do you get why
 I keep rolling the dice?
 It's time to do something desperate for the hell of it
 Something desperate for the hell of it
 Gonna do something desperate for the hell of it
 I'm already gone
 I'll try not to endanger
 The life of a stranger
 Won't go running my car off the road
 And I'll try not to hurt you
 I won't mess with the virtue
 Of people still thinking it's worth holding
 Something desperate for the hell of it
 As Edison electrocutes the elephant
 Do it pestilently full of reverence
 Until we are one
 Hey, thanks for listening
 It's the last thing I'll say
 Can you stop by the market
 On your way home today?
 I think we're out of something
 I guess I could be wrong
 Was gonna fix a nice surprise
 But then I wrote this song