Callous

I lost my callouses for you
 And you didn't even think to ask me how my day was
 Now I'm leaving
 I couldn't even count the number of times
 That I let you in and I made myself small
 Even though I smile through out it all
 When I look back
 I can see myself slipping down
 Heaven knows, heaven knows I tried
 Heaven knows I tried tonight
 I know it's not your fault
 You were born with a spoon in your throat
 And a gun in your hand and a plan for yourself
 I'm not grieving
 It's just a matter of time and a matter of what
 And you've known since birth what you like
 And I'm happy for you until my face is blue
 When I look back
 I can see myself so clear
 When I look back
 I can see myself slipping down
 Tonight will be the night
 Heaven knows, heaven knows I tried
 Tonight will be the night
 Heaven knows I tried tonight
 Tonight will be the night
 Heaven knows, heaven knows I tried
 Tonight will be the night
 Heaven knows I tried tonight
 Tonight will be the night
 Heaven knows, heaven knows I tried
 Tonight will be the night
 Heaven knows I tried tonight