i'm not okay

I'm not okay
 I keep fucking lying to myself, it's all the same
 I can't figure out why I can't find someone to blame
 Every single tear is wiped away, I never change
 I never change
 I'm not okay
 I keep fucking lying to myself, it's all the same
 I can't figure out why I can't find someone to blame
 Every single tear is wiped away, I never change
 I never change, I ne-ne-
 I'm still the same as I've been and it's getting boring
 I'm not okay but I guess it's really not important
 I hold myself back, too scared of movin' on
 I'm lyin' through my fucking teeth when I say nothin's wrong
 There's nothing goin' on, I'm just too fucking shallow
 I can't keep goin' on, afraid of my own shadow
 It's every single day, too many fears to face
 I just wanted you to know
 I'm not okay
 I keep fucking lying to myself, it's all the same
 I can't figure out why I can't find someone to blame
 Every single tear is wiped away, I never change
 I never change
 I'm not okay
 I keep fucking lying to myself, it's all the same
 I can't figure out why I can't find someone to blame
 Every single tear is wiped away, I never change
 I never change, I ne-ne-
 Yeah, tryna find beauty in this pain
 Tired of feelin' blue and seeing rain
 Need to find a way to rearrange
 Always keep on sayin' I'ma change, right
 Thought that I would've been better by now
 Part of me's stuck and it's pullin' me down
 I wanted to change but I didn't know how
 So why can't I get out the way?
 All the things that I wanted to say
 Let me go and forget my name
 My name
 I'm not okay
 I keep fucking lying to myself, it's all the same
 I can't figure out why I can't find someone to blame
 Every single tear is wiped away, I never change
 I never change
 I'm not okay
 I keep fucking lying to myself, it's all the same
 I can't figure out why I can't find someone to blame
 Every single tear is wiped away, I never change
 I never change, I ne-ne-