Lamentations (feat. Leah Smith)

Pops told me that no is no and slow your roll young so and so, that's the lesson that I'm getting from a brave man/now his bodies in a grave how low is low you get the message I aint messing when I say fam/
 He died so every night that I cried waking up with wet sheets as tears fall from my eyes/
 Mother getting less sleep I'm near to my demise/
 Its clear it gets deep this caught us by surprise in a minute/
 Went from wife to widow in an instant do you get it/
 Hear my plight his pictures is a witness/
 Trying to scrimmage for hope hearing the minister quote/
 My mind's feeling so sinister diminished and broke/oh my who can administer real life I never would have thought I would know what this feel like, this feel like/
 Darkness all over me, like its all over feeling hopeless whose holding me hope is bleak...
 Lord, though you slay me, I will rejoice/
 Weak and weary but my body is Yours/
 I hope You hear me these tears are my voice/
 I see You clearly like I didn't before/
 You give and You take away but by Your grace I know that You make a wayMy sister crying she falling down on that work floor, uncle wondering what its all for/watch em as they all mourn/
 Dark storm brewing and what hurts more is all the flashes in my head/
 Trying to work out what had happened coz his dead/
 Saw his body just laying in a coffin it was spread/
 It really got me it cut me so abruptly and it led/to me being so flippant not wishing to live/
 How could I get so distant I wanna be hid/
 I am one of his kids who is fatherless/how do you prepare for this moment whose got the starter kit/
 Any second wishing and hoping he'll come charging in/wrap me in his arms and tell me son it was all a myth/
 But that's the furthest from the truth the bearers of the news/came to my home and they showed me all the proof/
 And I really was bemused wondering why God would take him and leave me saddened and confused...
 Man I really wanna trust in the Lord yo/
 And as it stands know my God has got a plan, demand nothing and also/
 I'm feeling like poor Job, my reprimand is never trusting in man but God's sovereign of all souls/
 Including my father's and so I rest in and try to invest in, deny and reject sin/
 I'm trusting in the words of the Lord blessed are people who mourn sons and daughters we are blessed kin/them sleepless nights yeah I was wrestling/satan's deception made blatant impressions/
 Had me wondering and why questioning why/
 Now I'm wandering not trusting in the Saviour who died/
 God is sovereign and I know it, grants hope the hopeless/
 The Father to the fatherless has grace for the chosen/wipes tears and I know it/keep me sane each moment/
 Grant joy coz I no longer wanna be groaning I cry