Alive

Alive, I felt I was alive
 The room shook under his nervous steps
 I wished to not o-open my eyes, anymore
 In my house everything was unfamiliar
 Wasn't him, wasn't his fury on my bones
 I was wrong; I could make amend the problem that I had created
 And I still hung, with my nails and all my memories
 I was less than the idea he had about me
 While I kept telling myself "I just have to wait for it to pass"
 The hell was mine but I needed to
 Believe, as I still breathed
 I could never be more blessed than this, oh no...
 In my house everything was unfamiliar
 Wasn't him, wasn't his fury on my bones
 I was wrong, I could make amend the problem that I had created
 When words hurt more than a whole night with him
 My son shadow turns me back to forgive
 With a fast rewind, I forgot any wounds on my raped mind
 And your dreams, who knows where are now...
 And my dreams had fallen down to resist
 In my house everything was unfamiliar
 He was, and was his fury on my bones
 I knew I couldn't make amend the problem that I didn't create
 The main effort, to admit that I had really failed
 That I'd known the most degrading misery
 To discover that I could deserve more than a daily dread