Through the Fog

I watched those sparkles darken
 I've seen control disperse
 I thought you knew the secrets; that you controlled the Earth
 When we was young you told me
 You'd hold my hand and jump
 I didn't know you'd let me fall when your shit cramping up
 I'm sinking through the ink
 I feel it closing in
 You tried to nurse my wound when you had broke the skin
 A trait as old as sin, it's hands through the garbage
 I watched you lie to me while we danced through the carnage
 Pull me close, the stars darting: big things are even bigger now
 I thought that I could fly away. You sat and watched me hit the ground
 It's all different now: the pace has got me pacing
 I guess that's what I get for fucking chasing what I'm chasing
 What's it mean?
 Used to wonder how to cope
 Ponder how to float
 How do I adult? Climb inside the boat
 Why do I emote? My kaleidoscope's stuck inside the blues
 Can't deny my role, others thrive, I don't I feel tired, yo
 I need Tylenol, look, I'm not likable
 I'm unreliable, that's undeniable, nope
 Turns out, once the curtains down
 The Tooth Fairy's dead, and their words cast doubt
 Childish bricks in a dirt glass house
 Ashen wings that can't surpass clouds turn back now
 The illusion isn't worth it
 They will fail to reach the sky, give up then claim to choose the surface
 For some the ego wears the crown but there is no descendent
 So once the guillotine goes down what's left is but resentment
 I'd rather be what I'm about and choose not to defend it
 Don't strive to please nobody now so, I don't need pretending
 What it be? What it don't?
 I can see, through the fog
 What it be? What it don't?
 I can see, through the fog
 What'd you do? I don't know
 But now I'm left to pick my body off the floor let's fucking go
 Say, what'd you do? I don't know
 But now I'm left to pick my body off the floor like where'd you go?
 Say, what'd you do? I don't know
 But now I'm left to pick my body off the floor let's fucking go
 Say, what'd you do? I don't know
 But now I'm left to pick my body off the floor like where'd you go?