One summer can't fill a hole that's been dug for years
Crushed by fear robust and fierce, chugging tears
The grudge is clear
Affront ensues, the muzzle wears
Forget appearances, clearly no one fucking cares
I'm introverted with a flair for the dramatic
I'm sick of my despair, I'm so embarrassed
I'm sick of always caring so emphatic, I'm erratic
And when I really should care get distracted
It's apparent
I'm sick of hearing everybody's shit
Everybody's shit is worse than everybody's is
Exclaimed with pompous, confidence,
Along with youth flaunting accomplishments, plea for astonishment
Neither providing acumen uncommon, nor yet operative but hey
I won't listen to it, I won't heed it
Don't want to judge them, I'm no different, just conceited
Hey melancholy as you enter reason fleeting reaching
For a quick distraction, but tonight though I don't need it, I mean
I'm finna flee, I'm finna bounce (yeah)
I tossed the key outside my house (yeah)
I'll disappear and not come back (uh)
I'll disappear, I'll disappear
Escaping me, escape my mouth (escape my mouth)
I dry my tears, and wipe 'em out (uh)
I'll disappear, and not come back (yeah)
I'll disappear, I'll disappear
I smoke so much, sober I'm seeing shit differently
I'm outta touch with my fam, I know they sick of me
Shit, I'm sick of me
Suicide in my peripheral
I don't know why J stick with me
Right now, I'm simply do or die
So I just do, who am I? I'm confused
They say my whole life I got to choose, but not really
I thought if I trained and became nice with the craft, I couldn't lose
But instead of cheese, I only got the blues
So I'm just
Working, working, working, life hard bro
But if I don't go to work, I might starve bro
And if I don't have a goal, life ain't worth it
So when I get home from work, I go to work
Next year, I gotta make it even if it hurt
But I guess these just first world problems
Just puzzles, I could solve em'
I just need access to the pieces
I used to hack dudes until they tracked me like a beacon
Now I just teach it
I talk in code cause I keep so many secrets
Tell em' niggas something these days and they'll leak it
Wish I was younger, ignorance was convenient
Getting older I feel like, knowledge became my weakness
My bad, Rav
I know I'm always on some deep shit