Wake Up

I ask myself, will I ever change?
 A broken record can't turn the page
 Take a long hard look in the bathroom mirror
 Head in my hands, how'd I end up here?
 But the days go on, people in their lanes
 Can't rid the doubts or ditch the shame
 Little laughs and coping lies, I tell myself it's a disguise
 When I wake up, when I wake up
 It's written on my face
 When I wake up, when I wake up
 Say today's the day that I'm gonna change
 I'm gonna fucking change, find a way
 Fight the urge, leave yesterday
 I'm gonna fucking change
 A weekend stayed, those stupid nights
 The worst decisions of my life
 And I wish I could take it all back
 But we know life doesn't work like that
 So my guard is up, can I let it down?
 I don't know love, lost never found
 Start to wonder what's wrong with me
 Because everyone else has found their feet
 I was living hard and running out of time
 Let the forts of courage confine it
 I don't know, I don't know anymore, no
 I don't know, I don't know anymore
 When I wake up, when I wake up
 It's written on my face
 When I wake up, when I wake up
 Say today's the day that I'm gonna change
 She said you're fucked up
 She said you're so fucked up
 She said you're fucked up
 She said you're so fucked up
 Said I'm gonna change, find a way
 Fight the urge, leave yesterday
 Said I'm gonna change, find a way
 Fight the urge, fuck yesterday