PHD

Doctor, I feel like I was poisoned
 I haven't shown any signs or warning
 I'm sick of the pills
 I'm fighting
 I'm somewhere between a new life and dying
 I don't know who I am
 I don't know who I am
 I don't know who I am
 But I know who I want to be
 Alright, I'm scared and angry
 Five years in a blur
 Misdiagnosed
 Had nothing wrong with me to cure
 I listened
 I was just a kid
 No voice for myself
 I holed up and hid
 Didn't have no one to talk to, only felt pain
 Barely felt at all, I was so drained
 Couldn't laugh or cry
 No lows or highs
 I was so numb, you could stick a needle in my eye
 How do I explain what it was like?
 The new doc said they had it wrong my whole life
 This whole time believing it was from my dad
 Docs write prescriptions quick as they can
 They're getting spiffed with pharma gifts
 I was a cog, a number on a list
 I can't go back to black
 (I can't go back to black)
 Doctor, I feel like I was poisoned
 I haven't shown any signs or warning
 I'm sick of the pills
 I'm fighting
 I'm somewhere between a new life and dying
 I don't know who I am
 I don't know who I am
 I stopped taking the pills
 Scary at first
 A wave of emotion in one sudden burst
 No longer in my shell, feelings flooded my brain
 Dropped 55 pounds, broke out of my cage
 I could laugh again, I could cry again
 I could feel love and I made some new friends
 For the first time in many damn years
 Had my life back and I was steering
 Doctor, I'm clean of this poison
 I have set myself free, I can breathe again
 I'm a new version of me learning who I am
 Trusting myself
 I got a plan
 Now I know who I am
 Now I know who I am
 Now I know who I am
 I'm getting my PhD
 Now I know who I am
 Now I know who I am
 Now I know who I am
 I'm getting my PhD